The constant reevaluation of my choices and other people I'm connected with makes the whole Tallinn experience feel like some eye-opening journey and a transition into a worse person rather than the expected careless student life.
I have people that can only be categorized as "ex-friends", just because the friendship ceased to function with September. Not the expected ones.
By the way, I've had two visitors, except for family. That's great, for a foreign country, but not that great if considering the fucking actual distance and price (you probably spend more even for a shitty party). At least 10 people promised to come, at least 5 started to make plans, getting my hopes up, just to cancel just because of a lack of initiative. And this is the part which I really hate. Was that small talk and was I not seriously supposed to care, or am I losing some value?
I realize the problems with long distance relationships, on whatever levels, but this is getting ridiculous. Also, I can't seem to figure out a way to fit in the small circle of people I know here, so the problems are pressing.
On the pleasant side, we had a great rehearsal, and we'll have more. And I'm playing with another coverband in Saaremaa in early March. And probably getting a cajon. And probably going to Scotland.
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No individual accusations, general trends.
The constant reevaluation of my choices and other people I'm connected with makes the whole Tallinn experience feel like some eye-opening journey and a transition into a worse person rather than the expected careless student life.
YEP.
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