Theories

Incredibly, the choir practice every week gives me an actual meaning to life or something. I'm doing my part, others do the same and there's some good result to that. I get to do something I like, I can also talk with people, this almost replaces a relationship. Maybe this is what people meant with "move on and learn to live without a girlfriend", but, on the other hand, in days without the choir, I still feel shitty, so that's not really a result. 

The film watching plan did not work out, so I'll just postpone that to a time when I actually don't have anything to do. Somehow my schedule is full and I like that a lot - tomorrow chess, filming, helping others with English homework, Friday - party and preparation for it, Saturday - jamming with the classmates and maybe coming to Riga too. That's like three days without loneliness, holy shit. 

I had just turned 16 and I was quite alright then.